For those of you have been following me along my whole journey to Haiti, I have been trying my best to describe some of the bigger feelings and things that have left impressions on me but I know that I have missed a large portion of the whole experience as well. There was just so much to see, hear, and do there that I couldn’t possibly write about everything. Ironic enough, I couldn’t write about it all, but here I am sitting in the airport thinking about every single thing ever since I first woke up this morning.

First culture shock, I woke up absolutely freezing in our hotel room. I was used to sleeping to the sounds of the ocean, chickens, few horns, and dogs barking but last night was only the vent system of the hotel. I still hate that I had to stay in such a place after everything that I had experienced. Also, in the airport, let me tell you…I’m having a huge problem with the American way of life to be honest. I knew that this would happen for the next few weeks but I couldn’t believe how hard it has hit me.

On the plane I couldn’t even get myself to look at anyone and I just felt a pit at the bottom of my heart and an ache that I can’t even begin to describe. I wanted nothing more than to turn around and run out the airport doors before we took off, but I had to leave so I sat there and the events from the past three weeks played through my mind the whole time. I won’t lie, I cried and right now I could too. I know that this trip has changed me and it is still changing me while I am coming home as well.

Traveling isn’t always easy and I have been lucky enough to have Abby by my side throughout this whole trip. She has travelled before and she knew how we would feel after we left. But if someone asked me if I would travel again, I would do it in a heart beat. Sure the trip was hard and it forced me to think about myself in a way that I never had before, but isn’t that why we travel? Not so that we may escape life, but for life not to escape us.

If someone were to ask me if they should travel however, I would tell them that they should skip the all inclusive and five star resort experience and go for something rich in culture and really embrace everything about that new place. This is the best way to learn and if you never try anything new, then how can you find anything? This type of travel isn’t for everyone though, it is hard and uncomfortable at times but that’s how the place leaves a true impact on you. I would only encourage those who want a life changing experience to go. I would emphasize the fact that traveling is much different than vacationing.

“Travel isn’t always pretty. It isn’t always comfortable. Sometimes it hurts, it even breaks your heart. the journey changes you – it should change you. It leaves marks on your memory, on your consciousness, on your heart, and on your body. You take something with you…hopefully you leave something good behind.”